I’m Sorry

I’m sorry if I hurt you
That was never my intent
It might be too late to change things now
But I want to say I’m sorry

I thought that I was ready
But I jumped in far too deep
I overstepped and tumbled down
And I’m afraid I took you with me

I didn’t know myself like I do now
I thought that I was someone else
I was still trying on faces
And you suffered for it

I thought that I was better, stronger, braver
I thought I could take on the world
I didn’t realize that I am weak
I wouldn’t let you help me

I had big dreams for the future
I wanted to save the world
I thought I could do it myself
And you saw me fall

I have grown up since then
I have gotten wiser
I have been humbled
And I’m ready to try again

I know that I’m not perfect
I have a long way to go still
But I am continuing on
Growing wiser with every step

So I’m sorry if I hurt you
I know that you’ve been wounded
You got caught in my mistakes
I want you to know that I’m better now

I’m sorry if I hurt you
I pray that you can heal
I know it will take time
I hope you can forgive me

Walls of Smiles

Her walls are made up of smiles
Of “I’m okay”s and “How are you?”s
She smothers her sadness for others
She has to be happy for them

A storm is raging underneath
But she will not let it show
Her walls are made up of smiles
And no one will ever know

She is a shoulder to cry on
And a rock for her friends
She smothers her sadness for others
But how long until it smothers her?

Little Girl, Broken

Little girl, brand new
Nothing to fear
Nothing will hurt her
She is protected
She is loved

Little girl, bold
She explores with exuberance
Excited about the world
She is innocent
She is loved

Little girl, bewildered
She discovers pain
The world is different now
She is wounded
She is loved

Little girl, battered
She falls down
And rises with difficulty
She is tired
She is loved

Little girl, broken
She has been hurt
Too many times
She is lonely
She is loved

Little girl, beaten
She looks around
And finds no one beside her
She is defeated
She is loved

Little girl, beloved
She finds her help
They have been there always
She is encouraged
She is loved

Little girl, brave
She stands back up
Against all odds
She is determined
She is loved

Little girl, beautiful
She presses on
Always forward
She is stronger
She is loved

Little girl, broken and brave
She lights the way
For others to follow
She is beautiful
She is loved

Teach Me to Be

Lord, take my pain
Take my worries
Take my anger
Take my frustration
Take my regrets
Take my grief
Take my loneliness
Take my suffering
Take my fear of tomorrow

This is not who I’m meant to be

I want to see you now
I want to hear you now
I want to be with you now
Teach me to be

The time is now
This is the moment
There will not be another like it

God, I give you my mess
I lay it down at your feet

Give me peace
Give me joy
Give me love
Teach me to be

In Stillness

When all is quiet
And we are left alone
And there are no distractions
Only our truest self
What will we find?

When no one tells us who to be
And how to act
And what to think
What will we have left?
Who are we when everything is stripped away?

Will we like what we find?

Or will we fun
And go back to who we thought we were
And wait for someone to tell us who we are

We are terrified of stillness
When we are faced with ourselves
What if we don’t like who we are?
What if we don’t know who we are?
What if we find nothing?

We are terrified of the emptiness

And so we fill our lives
Every moment
So there is no time for stillness

But it is in stillness that we know who we are
Who we have been
And who we might be

And we are terrified

We detach from our lives
We don’t even know who we are

It is time to reconnect
It is time to face our fears
It is time to dig deep
It is time to find out who we are

Change

People change
They grow
They become someone new

They are different
Not better or worse
But different

People grow
Relationships evolve
Things cannot always be as they were

I cannot always be there
But life does not stop
Change is constant

The world does not wait for you
So enjoy every moment
But what if I’m not there to enjoy it?

I need to spread my wings
Be my own person
But I don’t want to leave behind what I had

I don’t want to miss it
Not even one moment
But I can’t always be there

There’s no use longing for what I can’t have
It’s best to move on
But I love them

Who I was then
Is not who I am now
I cannot go back

Love in every moment
Appreciate every second
You don’t know how long you have

Someday

Someday you will run
You will go where you want
You will speak your mind
You will make your needs known
But not yet

Someday you will be big
You will grow up
You will be able to do anything
You will follow your dreams
But not yet

Someday you will make your own decisions
You will find your own way
You will be independent
You will be free
But not yet

Someday you will find love
You will find your purpose
You will know yourself
You will live fully
But not yet

Someday you will be happy
You will love yourself
You will achieve your dreams
You will love life
But not yet

When will we get there?
Why do we wait?
Why not now?

The world needs us now
Someday is not soon enough
Not yet is not an option
Now!

Don’t wait to be older
Don’t wait until you are ready
Challenge yourself
Go now!

We can change the world
Now go!