What Happens After This?

What happens after this?
When the list has been checked off
When we come to the end of the map
Where will we go?

What happens after this?
We’ll go our separate ways
No longer bound together
We’ll be alone again

What happens after this?
We’ll be on our own
Smaller than we’ve ever been
Struggling to find our way

What happens after this?
We can’t go back
We’re afraid to go forward
It’s terrifying

What happens after this?
Well try to find our way
We’ll stumble through as best we can
But maybe we will fly

What happens after this?
We could go anywhere
We could do anything
How can we choose?

What happens after this?

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Mixed Messages

You have your whole life ahead of you!
Better start planning now

There is a world of opportunities for you!
Make sure you narrow it down

Live while you’re young!
Make sure you’re a responsible adult

Don’t worry about the future!
You need to plan ahead

You’ve got plenty of time!
Don’t waste it

You don’t need to make any huge decisions!
What are you doing with your life?

You can always do something else!
Figure it out now

Do what makes you happy!
Make sure you can pay the bills

So many messages
So many well-meaning advisors

I’m left with one question:
What do I do?

I’m Sorry

I’m sorry if I hurt you
That was never my intent
It might be too late to change things now
But I want to say I’m sorry

I thought that I was ready
But I jumped in far too deep
I overstepped and tumbled down
And I’m afraid I took you with me

I didn’t know myself like I do now
I thought that I was someone else
I was still trying on faces
And you suffered for it

I thought that I was better, stronger, braver
I thought I could take on the world
I didn’t realize that I am weak
I wouldn’t let you help me

I had big dreams for the future
I wanted to save the world
I thought I could do it myself
And you saw me fall

I have grown up since then
I have gotten wiser
I have been humbled
And I’m ready to try again

I know that I’m not perfect
I have a long way to go still
But I am continuing on
Growing wiser with every step

So I’m sorry if I hurt you
I know that you’ve been wounded
You got caught in my mistakes
I want you to know that I’m better now

I’m sorry if I hurt you
I pray that you can heal
I know it will take time
I hope you can forgive me

Little Girl, Broken

Little girl, brand new
Nothing to fear
Nothing will hurt her
She is protected
She is loved

Little girl, bold
She explores with exuberance
Excited about the world
She is innocent
She is loved

Little girl, bewildered
She discovers pain
The world is different now
She is wounded
She is loved

Little girl, battered
She falls down
And rises with difficulty
She is tired
She is loved

Little girl, broken
She has been hurt
Too many times
She is lonely
She is loved

Little girl, beaten
She looks around
And finds no one beside her
She is defeated
She is loved

Little girl, beloved
She finds her help
They have been there always
She is encouraged
She is loved

Little girl, brave
She stands back up
Against all odds
She is determined
She is loved

Little girl, beautiful
She presses on
Always forward
She is stronger
She is loved

Little girl, broken and brave
She lights the way
For others to follow
She is beautiful
She is loved

Change

People change
They grow
They become someone new

They are different
Not better or worse
But different

People grow
Relationships evolve
Things cannot always be as they were

I cannot always be there
But life does not stop
Change is constant

The world does not wait for you
So enjoy every moment
But what if I’m not there to enjoy it?

I need to spread my wings
Be my own person
But I don’t want to leave behind what I had

I don’t want to miss it
Not even one moment
But I can’t always be there

There’s no use longing for what I can’t have
It’s best to move on
But I love them

Who I was then
Is not who I am now
I cannot go back

Love in every moment
Appreciate every second
You don’t know how long you have

Someday

Someday you will run
You will go where you want
You will speak your mind
You will make your needs known
But not yet

Someday you will be big
You will grow up
You will be able to do anything
You will follow your dreams
But not yet

Someday you will make your own decisions
You will find your own way
You will be independent
You will be free
But not yet

Someday you will find love
You will find your purpose
You will know yourself
You will live fully
But not yet

Someday you will be happy
You will love yourself
You will achieve your dreams
You will love life
But not yet

When will we get there?
Why do we wait?
Why not now?

The world needs us now
Someday is not soon enough
Not yet is not an option
Now!

Don’t wait to be older
Don’t wait until you are ready
Challenge yourself
Go now!

We can change the world
Now go!

Cleansed

Lost, confused, and scared
The weight of the world on my shoulders
Nowhere else to go
I find myself
At the foot of the cross
Clinging to the One who saves

There is nothing left for me in the past
And the future seems so distant
How can I escape this vicious cycle?

I’m tired of pretending
Of running away
Of saying I’m okay
When I am so broken inside

Weeping
My tears mix with His blood
He alone can save me
I have no more strength

Gently He lifts me
Carries me to I know not where
The strength of a father
The protection of a brother
The tenderness of a lover

He lowers me into the river
Fast water flowing over my body
Vulnerable, scared, desperate
But I cannot fight it
I am too tired
I must trust my Master

The power of the water overwhelms me
Cold, strong, unrelenting
I feel I will be washed away
Or drown
I cannot feel his touch anymore
I cannot save myself
I feel there is no hope

Suddenly: the sun
His strong arms around me
Lifting me from the water
I gasp for breath
After so long without it
The sun on my face
Cool breeze on my skin
Water dripping from my hair
I laugh, and He laughs with me

Renewed strength
I am clean
I am stronger than before
I am loved
I am His