Second Chance

Terrified
Guilty
Unloved
Surrounded by those who know me only for my sin
They do not see me
They do not love me

Pressing in at all sides
Panic
There is no escape
Suffocated by the weight of what I’ve done

There is no second chance
No hope of redemption
I have made my choice
And now I must suffer the consequences

I shrink
And cry
Hoping against hope
But I see the rocks
The hands lifted to strike
I cannot escape my fate
I close my eyes
And pray that my God will forgive me

But the rocks do not come

I open my eyes
The crowd has parted
There is a man
He bends and draws in the dirt
Everyone watches

He stands
And he speaks
And one by one
The men walk away
Until just the two of us remain

He comes to me
He lifts me up
He looks at me
He sees me
And He loves me

“Go and sin no more.”

I laugh
Cry tears of joy
My prayer has been answered
My God has forgiven me
The weight is lifted
I can breathe once more

He smiles
Looks at me with love
We embrace
I am made new

Worth So Much More

You are broken
You are hurting
You feel you are unworthy

You think yourself unlovable

You have been wounded
You have been betrayed
Those who should love you most
Have left you alone

You are lost
You search for meaning, for love
But you are guarded
You don’t want to be hurt again

So many times you’ve been abandoned
So many times you’ve been told you’re not worth it
So many times you’ve had your heart ripped out and trampled on

And you believed the lies

Child, you are loved more than you could ever know
You are worth so much more than you can fathom
You deserve only the best

But you believe the lies

Darling, you are beautiful, you are worthy, you are loved

You were created for big things
Do not settle for “good enough”
You deserve to be happy
You deserve to be loved

But you believe the lies

Why can’t you understand how special you are?
There is no one on earth like you
You are irreplaceable
You are my beloved

But you believe the lies

Little Girl, Broken

Little girl, brand new
Nothing to fear
Nothing will hurt her
She is protected
She is loved

Little girl, bold
She explores with exuberance
Excited about the world
She is innocent
She is loved

Little girl, bewildered
She discovers pain
The world is different now
She is wounded
She is loved

Little girl, battered
She falls down
And rises with difficulty
She is tired
She is loved

Little girl, broken
She has been hurt
Too many times
She is lonely
She is loved

Little girl, beaten
She looks around
And finds no one beside her
She is defeated
She is loved

Little girl, beloved
She finds her help
They have been there always
She is encouraged
She is loved

Little girl, brave
She stands back up
Against all odds
She is determined
She is loved

Little girl, beautiful
She presses on
Always forward
She is stronger
She is loved

Little girl, broken and brave
She lights the way
For others to follow
She is beautiful
She is loved

Teach Me to Be

Lord, take my pain
Take my worries
Take my anger
Take my frustration
Take my regrets
Take my grief
Take my loneliness
Take my suffering
Take my fear of tomorrow

This is not who I’m meant to be

I want to see you now
I want to hear you now
I want to be with you now
Teach me to be

The time is now
This is the moment
There will not be another like it

God, I give you my mess
I lay it down at your feet

Give me peace
Give me joy
Give me love
Teach me to be

Cleansed

Lost, confused, and scared
The weight of the world on my shoulders
Nowhere else to go
I find myself
At the foot of the cross
Clinging to the One who saves

There is nothing left for me in the past
And the future seems so distant
How can I escape this vicious cycle?

I’m tired of pretending
Of running away
Of saying I’m okay
When I am so broken inside

Weeping
My tears mix with His blood
He alone can save me
I have no more strength

Gently He lifts me
Carries me to I know not where
The strength of a father
The protection of a brother
The tenderness of a lover

He lowers me into the river
Fast water flowing over my body
Vulnerable, scared, desperate
But I cannot fight it
I am too tired
I must trust my Master

The power of the water overwhelms me
Cold, strong, unrelenting
I feel I will be washed away
Or drown
I cannot feel his touch anymore
I cannot save myself
I feel there is no hope

Suddenly: the sun
His strong arms around me
Lifting me from the water
I gasp for breath
After so long without it
The sun on my face
Cool breeze on my skin
Water dripping from my hair
I laugh, and He laughs with me

Renewed strength
I am clean
I am stronger than before
I am loved
I am His

Never Be the Same

She pushes through the crowd
Determined but terrified
Desperate for a cure
For love
For acceptance
For meaning in a world of empty promises.

She is broken
Lost and confused
She knows she needs a Savior

She reaches out
He’s there
Right there!
With one finger
Of one hand
She touches His robe

She feels a change instantly
She doesn’t know how
But she’s different.
One touch
With such dramatic effects

“Who touched me?”
Terror strikes her
What had she done?
She starts to run
But she knows she cannot.
She must face the Man who healed her.

The crowd parts
He approaches
He sees her
But she cannot look at Him

She falls to the ground
He is so good
So powerful
She is afraid

She clutches His robe
Weeping at His feet
She is afraid
She is thankful
She is sorrowful
She is joyful
She loves
She is alive

His hands on her head
A blessing

He crouches in front of her
Absolute love

He takes her head in His hands
And looks at her
Into her deepest being
He sees her fears
Her insecurities
Her loneliness
Her longing
He sees her

She weeps
Her hands on His
Tears stream down her face
Through their fingers
She has never been loved this way
She cannot look at Him
But she wants to always be with Him

“My daughter.”
Their eyes meet
Through her tears she can see
His smile
Loving
Knowing
Understanding

She loves Him
She bursts forth
Wraps her arms around Him
In His strong embrace
She is safe
She is loved
She is not alone

Her life will never be the same.