Tear Away the Veil

Stifled
Clouded
Muted
Deaf

Distracted
Confused
Lost
Smothered

Where have I gone?
What have I done?
Who have I become?
Where do I belong?

I want clarity
To be rid of this fog

I want to see you
To gaze deeply into your eyes

I want to hear you
To hear your voice echo in my soul

I want to feel your presence
To feel you with me always

I want to breathe in you
To be more like you with every breath

I want to be free of this fog!
I want to be truly alive again!

I don’t want to live in confusion
I want to see you clearly
Hear you clearly
Feel you clearly
I want to be close to you

Tear away the veil!

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Cleansed

Lost, confused, and scared
The weight of the world on my shoulders
Nowhere else to go
I find myself
At the foot of the cross
Clinging to the One who saves

There is nothing left for me in the past
And the future seems so distant
How can I escape this vicious cycle?

I’m tired of pretending
Of running away
Of saying I’m okay
When I am so broken inside

Weeping
My tears mix with His blood
He alone can save me
I have no more strength

Gently He lifts me
Carries me to I know not where
The strength of a father
The protection of a brother
The tenderness of a lover

He lowers me into the river
Fast water flowing over my body
Vulnerable, scared, desperate
But I cannot fight it
I am too tired
I must trust my Master

The power of the water overwhelms me
Cold, strong, unrelenting
I feel I will be washed away
Or drown
I cannot feel his touch anymore
I cannot save myself
I feel there is no hope

Suddenly: the sun
His strong arms around me
Lifting me from the water
I gasp for breath
After so long without it
The sun on my face
Cool breeze on my skin
Water dripping from my hair
I laugh, and He laughs with me

Renewed strength
I am clean
I am stronger than before
I am loved
I am His

Never Be the Same

She pushes through the crowd
Determined but terrified
Desperate for a cure
For love
For acceptance
For meaning in a world of empty promises.

She is broken
Lost and confused
She knows she needs a Savior

She reaches out
He’s there
Right there!
With one finger
Of one hand
She touches His robe

She feels a change instantly
She doesn’t know how
But she’s different.
One touch
With such dramatic effects

“Who touched me?”
Terror strikes her
What had she done?
She starts to run
But she knows she cannot.
She must face the Man who healed her.

The crowd parts
He approaches
He sees her
But she cannot look at Him

She falls to the ground
He is so good
So powerful
She is afraid

She clutches His robe
Weeping at His feet
She is afraid
She is thankful
She is sorrowful
She is joyful
She loves
She is alive

His hands on her head
A blessing

He crouches in front of her
Absolute love

He takes her head in His hands
And looks at her
Into her deepest being
He sees her fears
Her insecurities
Her loneliness
Her longing
He sees her

She weeps
Her hands on His
Tears stream down her face
Through their fingers
She has never been loved this way
She cannot look at Him
But she wants to always be with Him

“My daughter.”
Their eyes meet
Through her tears she can see
His smile
Loving
Knowing
Understanding

She loves Him
She bursts forth
Wraps her arms around Him
In His strong embrace
She is safe
She is loved
She is not alone

Her life will never be the same.

I Am Me

Here I am
In all my mess
All my brokenness
Lost and alone
Searching for a way home

I give you my woundedness
My anger
My fear
My frustration
My anxiety
My loneliness
My joy
My laughter and my tears

I give you my heart
Small, insignificant
Broken
Patched together the best I could
I’m tired of trying to believe it’s okay

My God, I need help
I can’t do this on my own
Please be with me
Please accept my gift of myself
Though I am broken
Though I am hurting
I need you all the more, God
Don’t leave me alone

The Dance

She dances alone
Swaying to the music
A smile on her face
Not waiting for Prince Charming

She is Free-Spirited
An individual
She doesn’t need anyone
She loves her independence
She’ll be fine

She keeps herself busy
Calls it her life
No time to think of what haunts her most
Will not realize the mess she’s in
It is all a façade

Her smile
Her dance
Her frivolous conversations
She cries out for help
Afraid no one can hear her

Desperate for love but feeling so alone
She tries to convince herself that she will be okay
But she is only a girl and her hurt is deep
She dances for someone to see her to hear her to help her to love her
Her dance is a call for help
She needs someone to see her to rescue her from the mud that she’s made for herself
She needs a shoulder to lean on
Someone to wash her face and say that she’s not alone
She can’t go on like this for long

What happens when reality catches up with her?
What can she do?
When she burns out,
Will there be anything left?

Wandering Wounded

She sees them
Their desperate cries for help
And her heart breaks
She longs to comfort them
To show them Truth
But she cannot

Because she is just as lost

Just as confused

Alone

And hurting.

She doesn’t know how to help
She doesn’t know what to say
She doesn’t know how to heal the hurt

That haunts them all.

The wandering wounded
The stubbornly lost
The ones with no hope

Those who feel alone
Those who fail to see
Those desperate for an answer

Seeking truth
Finding nothing
A world of empty promises

Shallow love
Safe boundaries
No connections

So lost

So confused

So alone

And hurting.