Second Chance

Terrified
Guilty
Unloved
Surrounded by those who know me only for my sin
They do not see me
They do not love me

Pressing in at all sides
Panic
There is no escape
Suffocated by the weight of what I’ve done

There is no second chance
No hope of redemption
I have made my choice
And now I must suffer the consequences

I shrink
And cry
Hoping against hope
But I see the rocks
The hands lifted to strike
I cannot escape my fate
I close my eyes
And pray that my God will forgive me

But the rocks do not come

I open my eyes
The crowd has parted
There is a man
He bends and draws in the dirt
Everyone watches

He stands
And he speaks
And one by one
The men walk away
Until just the two of us remain

He comes to me
He lifts me up
He looks at me
He sees me
And He loves me

“Go and sin no more.”

I laugh
Cry tears of joy
My prayer has been answered
My God has forgiven me
The weight is lifted
I can breathe once more

He smiles
Looks at me with love
We embrace
I am made new

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One More Year

If my time was running out
If I had one year to go
I would live differently

I would embrace every moment
Spend time with those I love
Love those I’m with

I would not waste time
Do the things I love
Become who I have longed to be

I would try to make a difference
Help those who need it
Stand up for the little ones

I would worry less
Live every moment
Be fearless

I would travel more
Try new things
Go on adventures

I would give more hugs
Say “I love you”
Smile more

I would mourn for the moments I’d never have
Be thankful for all the moments I did have
See every moment as a blessing

I would appreciate every “last”
Apologize and forgive
Strive to be my best

If I had one year left
One more year on this earth
I would live differently…

But why wait?
Why say “what if”?
I say LIVE NOW!

Embrace every moment NOW
Be your best NOW
Do what you love NOW
Make a difference NOW
Help others NOW
Worry less NOW
Be fearless NOW
Travel NOW
Try new things NOW
Go on adventures NOW
Give hugs NOW
Say “I love you” NOW
Smile NOW
Be thankful NOW
Apologize NOW
Forgive NOW
LIVE NOW!

Do not wait for tomorrow
Our days are numbered
Do not waste them

The past cannot be changed
The future is not certain
Now is all we have

LIVE NOW!

Worth So Much More

You are broken
You are hurting
You feel you are unworthy

You think yourself unlovable

You have been wounded
You have been betrayed
Those who should love you most
Have left you alone

You are lost
You search for meaning, for love
But you are guarded
You don’t want to be hurt again

So many times you’ve been abandoned
So many times you’ve been told you’re not worth it
So many times you’ve had your heart ripped out and trampled on

And you believed the lies

Child, you are loved more than you could ever know
You are worth so much more than you can fathom
You deserve only the best

But you believe the lies

Darling, you are beautiful, you are worthy, you are loved

You were created for big things
Do not settle for “good enough”
You deserve to be happy
You deserve to be loved

But you believe the lies

Why can’t you understand how special you are?
There is no one on earth like you
You are irreplaceable
You are my beloved

But you believe the lies

I’m Sorry

I’m sorry if I hurt you
That was never my intent
It might be too late to change things now
But I want to say I’m sorry

I thought that I was ready
But I jumped in far too deep
I overstepped and tumbled down
And I’m afraid I took you with me

I didn’t know myself like I do now
I thought that I was someone else
I was still trying on faces
And you suffered for it

I thought that I was better, stronger, braver
I thought I could take on the world
I didn’t realize that I am weak
I wouldn’t let you help me

I had big dreams for the future
I wanted to save the world
I thought I could do it myself
And you saw me fall

I have grown up since then
I have gotten wiser
I have been humbled
And I’m ready to try again

I know that I’m not perfect
I have a long way to go still
But I am continuing on
Growing wiser with every step

So I’m sorry if I hurt you
I know that you’ve been wounded
You got caught in my mistakes
I want you to know that I’m better now

I’m sorry if I hurt you
I pray that you can heal
I know it will take time
I hope you can forgive me

Walls of Smiles

Her walls are made up of smiles
Of “I’m okay”s and “How are you?”s
She smothers her sadness for others
She has to be happy for them

A storm is raging underneath
But she will not let it show
Her walls are made up of smiles
And no one will ever know

She is a shoulder to cry on
And a rock for her friends
She smothers her sadness for others
But how long until it smothers her?

Little Girl, Broken

Little girl, brand new
Nothing to fear
Nothing will hurt her
She is protected
She is loved

Little girl, bold
She explores with exuberance
Excited about the world
She is innocent
She is loved

Little girl, bewildered
She discovers pain
The world is different now
She is wounded
She is loved

Little girl, battered
She falls down
And rises with difficulty
She is tired
She is loved

Little girl, broken
She has been hurt
Too many times
She is lonely
She is loved

Little girl, beaten
She looks around
And finds no one beside her
She is defeated
She is loved

Little girl, beloved
She finds her help
They have been there always
She is encouraged
She is loved

Little girl, brave
She stands back up
Against all odds
She is determined
She is loved

Little girl, beautiful
She presses on
Always forward
She is stronger
She is loved

Little girl, broken and brave
She lights the way
For others to follow
She is beautiful
She is loved

Teach Me to Be

Lord, take my pain
Take my worries
Take my anger
Take my frustration
Take my regrets
Take my grief
Take my loneliness
Take my suffering
Take my fear of tomorrow

This is not who I’m meant to be

I want to see you now
I want to hear you now
I want to be with you now
Teach me to be

The time is now
This is the moment
There will not be another like it

God, I give you my mess
I lay it down at your feet

Give me peace
Give me joy
Give me love
Teach me to be