Who Am I?

Who am I?
Underneath it all
If you strip away the mask
All the labels
All the hobbies
All the friends
All the things I hide behind

Who am I?
At my very core
My deepest self
My truest self
Have I ever met this person?
Would I recognize myself?

Who am I?
Peel back the layers
All the things I call myself
All the ways I define myself
All the people who I’ve let define me
Take it all away
Show me who I am!

What makes me who I am?
What are the things that cannot be taken away?
What should I hold on to?
What should I fight for?
What should I let go of?
Show me who I am!

I surrender myself
I give it back to you
Make me pure
Show me who I am!

Little Girl, Broken

Little girl, brand new
Nothing to fear
Nothing will hurt her
She is protected
She is loved

Little girl, bold
She explores with exuberance
Excited about the world
She is innocent
She is loved

Little girl, bewildered
She discovers pain
The world is different now
She is wounded
She is loved

Little girl, battered
She falls down
And rises with difficulty
She is tired
She is loved

Little girl, broken
She has been hurt
Too many times
She is lonely
She is loved

Little girl, beaten
She looks around
And finds no one beside her
She is defeated
She is loved

Little girl, beloved
She finds her help
They have been there always
She is encouraged
She is loved

Little girl, brave
She stands back up
Against all odds
She is determined
She is loved

Little girl, beautiful
She presses on
Always forward
She is stronger
She is loved

Little girl, broken and brave
She lights the way
For others to follow
She is beautiful
She is loved

Teach Me to Be

Lord, take my pain
Take my worries
Take my anger
Take my frustration
Take my regrets
Take my grief
Take my loneliness
Take my suffering
Take my fear of tomorrow

This is not who I’m meant to be

I want to see you now
I want to hear you now
I want to be with you now
Teach me to be

The time is now
This is the moment
There will not be another like it

God, I give you my mess
I lay it down at your feet

Give me peace
Give me joy
Give me love
Teach me to be

Tear Away the Veil

Stifled
Clouded
Muted
Deaf

Distracted
Confused
Lost
Smothered

Where have I gone?
What have I done?
Who have I become?
Where do I belong?

I want clarity
To be rid of this fog

I want to see you
To gaze deeply into your eyes

I want to hear you
To hear your voice echo in my soul

I want to feel your presence
To feel you with me always

I want to breathe in you
To be more like you with every breath

I want to be free of this fog!
I want to be truly alive again!

I don’t want to live in confusion
I want to see you clearly
Hear you clearly
Feel you clearly
I want to be close to you

Tear away the veil!

Cleansed

Lost, confused, and scared
The weight of the world on my shoulders
Nowhere else to go
I find myself
At the foot of the cross
Clinging to the One who saves

There is nothing left for me in the past
And the future seems so distant
How can I escape this vicious cycle?

I’m tired of pretending
Of running away
Of saying I’m okay
When I am so broken inside

Weeping
My tears mix with His blood
He alone can save me
I have no more strength

Gently He lifts me
Carries me to I know not where
The strength of a father
The protection of a brother
The tenderness of a lover

He lowers me into the river
Fast water flowing over my body
Vulnerable, scared, desperate
But I cannot fight it
I am too tired
I must trust my Master

The power of the water overwhelms me
Cold, strong, unrelenting
I feel I will be washed away
Or drown
I cannot feel his touch anymore
I cannot save myself
I feel there is no hope

Suddenly: the sun
His strong arms around me
Lifting me from the water
I gasp for breath
After so long without it
The sun on my face
Cool breeze on my skin
Water dripping from my hair
I laugh, and He laughs with me

Renewed strength
I am clean
I am stronger than before
I am loved
I am His

Calling

I want to take the leap of faith
I want to believe in miracles
I want to live with wild abandon
Live for Him

But what if I sink?
What if I take that step
And sink too deep?
What if I cannot swim?

The waves are too high
The storm is too violent
I don’t want to drown
To be consumed by the blackness

What if God’s not there to catch me?
I will surely drown
Better to stay in the boat
At least I’ll have a chance

That one step will change my life
For better or worse
Do I risk everything
For a chance at greatness?
Better to stay in the boat
In the relative safety

But how much will I lose?
Why can’t I trust the One who gave me life?